Tuesday, May 23, 2017

Pre-K Graduation Day

this has been a bit of a crazy time in our family. landon has been wrapping up his preschool years. and today was his pre-k graduation day. it is a little bittersweet moving on to kindergarten. i am excited for the changes to come... but, i know once school really hits... life will get extremely busy with sports, activities, and homework. time will fly.

it seems like just yesterday i was waiting for him to make his appearance. he was due around this date five years ago... how has it been five years since i began this journey of motherhood. a journey that has not always been easy. a journey that is exhausting and rewarding at the same time. a journey that i LOVE being on... but also need a break from too.

it has only been recently that i figured out how important it is to take a break. a moment to myself.  like a pit stop. whether it be out to dinner with a friend. a date night. a pedicure. a quick happy hour. writing a blog post. or even a thirty minute exercise session.

i'm looking forward to summer. a summer to enjoy my young children. a summer which will include time for myself.

a summer to continue on this journey... and of course i'll be adding in some pit stops.

Thursday, May 18, 2017


back in april i decided to start moving my body for the first time in a LONG time. i set the goal of doing the Jillian Michael's 30 Day Shred Challenge every day in May. because of many of you joining me, i was able to get myself exercising for fifteen days already!

fifteen days doesn't sound like much... but it is a big milestone here. i wanted to quit at least three times already. the first time was before day 1 even started. i didn't even want to begin working out. the second time was after day 5. i was miserable and feeling gross with myself on a friday night. and the third time was right before day 8. this was when i had to stop exercising for three days because of both nolan and me getting pretty sick. i thought i should just quit because i wanted to do 30 days straight during the month of may and now the streak was over. 

after the third time of wanting to quit, i realized something about myself. i am a perfectionist. i wanted to quit the third time because i didn't meet the "goal" of  30 days consecutively. it was no longer going to be followed perfectly. but that was a really difficult goal to even set for myself. for someone who hadn't moved a muscle in years. for someone who is busy being a wife. being a mom. being a teacher.

i think this is why it has taken me so long to drop all my weight. it was always all or nothing. i have gone on diets off and on over the past five years. i even tried cutting sugar this time last year... but i ate 1 donut on vacation and thought... well... that's it. might as well have another donut... and another.. and hence falling off the wagon. if i don't do it perfectly, i give up.  and pretty quickly.

giving up fun sugar for 100 days was a tough goal to achieve. it got easier as time went on and as more and more people knew i was doing it. i had so much support around me. the perfectionist in me didn't want to let myself down!  i didn't want to feel embarrassed by not succeeding. sometimes setting goals is a great thing... but sometimes they can disappoint too... especially when you set them a little to high... especially when you are a perfectionist and don't want to fail. 

i have learned now to share my goals with others. to let them know if i fail. or if i succeed. this motivates me to keep moving forward even when i feel defeated and want to quit. it is so much better to have friends along the way. i hope i continue to motivate you like you are all motivating me.

Sunday, May 14, 2017

A wacky week...

it has been one crazy week. it started off fine... everything going according to plan. and then nolan was sick. and then i got sick. i can't even remember the last time i felt so sick. i'm thinking like six years ago...

i had a fever of 102... and was just super nauseous. my whole body hurt. i couldn't eat. i couldn't move. but just for 24 hours. i kid you not! i felt my fever break early on wednesday morning. and then i was just tired from what my body had gone through. so i rested. and i drank fluids. and i rested some more. i took a four hour nap on wednesday! i paid for it that night though because i couldn't fall asleep until way after midnight. which in turn made me extra tired at work on thursday... but i made it through the week!

i finished Level 1 of the Shred... i took measurements on Day 1. for those of you shredding with me, definitely try to do this! i sometimes don't lose weight doing this program, but i have shredded inches! i'll post final shredded measurements at the end of Day 30... which looks to be around June 3rd... the next weigh-in!

If you are interested, Click HERE to see the results of the first time i Shredded... YEARS AGO! (Excuse the messy room... 😁😁😁😁😁)

the week ended with a lovely mothers day with my family. i was spoiled with lots of hugs, kisses, and a cleaned-up playroom!! wishing all you wonderful super moms an amazing Mother's Day!

Saturday, May 6, 2017


i'm almost a week in to this whole exercise thing. and i am going to share with you all the thoughts that have popped in my head since the first day.

Day 1:

  • why am i out of bed right now?
  • i wish i was under my covers...
  • is the baby up?
  • i think i am going to die.
  • holy... I am not sure i am going to be able to make it the whole 25 minutes
  • i hate myself for not exercising in years... why did i do this to myself?
  • my whole body hurts... 
  • thank goodness it's over!
Day 2:
  • why am i out of bed right now?
  • man... I miss my pillow.
  • is the baby up?
  • i am only doing this because of all the others joining me... otherwise i would be in bed.
  • i can't believe so many other people are joining me.
  • my body hurts. 
  • my armpits hurt.
  • this is terrible... i can't breathe.
  • thank goodness it's over!
Day 3:
  • why am i out of bed right now?
  • i wonder when the baby will get up?
  • jumping jacks first thing in the morning suck.
  • i hate all this jiggling going on... so gross.
  • i wonder if i ever will get rid of this soft, mushy tummy?
  • jillian michaels is getting on my nerves. 
  • why do they use skinny people in the videos... i want to look like Anita.
  • i think i only have like eight minutes left...
  • thank goodness it's over!
Day 4:
  • why am i out of bed right now?
  • i can't wait until this is over...
  • lunges are hard enough to do... why do i have to use hand weights too?
  • how is this only Day 4?
  • keep going... you have others doing this with you.
  • thank goodness it's over!
Day 5: 
  • why did i not get up this morning and exercise?
  • it is so much harder to workout at the end of the day.. what was i thinking?
  • i should be relaxing on my couch.
  • i can't wait to relax on my couch.
  • its friday night and i am exercising. ugh.
  • i am over all this sweat.
  • thank goodness it's over!
Day 6:
  • thank goodness the kids are in bed.
  • i can have some quiet time for me and exercise.
  • huh... i was able to do all the push ups today.
  • wow. i was able to get through jumping jacks and jump rope without stopping.
  • i almost made it through the whole video without stopping for a break.
  • that wasn't so bad tonight.
i realized last night how completely negative i have been with this whole exercise thing. i have negative thoughts go through my head during the whole 25 minutes! i had a friend comment yesterday that she felt good doing Day 5 of the Shred! i had to start looking at the bright side of moving this body... i want to run again some day. i want to be healthy and not feel like i am dying when i chase after my kids. i went into tonights workout positive... and it went so much better! I'm going to try be positive about these thirty days... or should i say 24! 6 days down... only 24 to go!

Wednesday, May 3, 2017

May Weigh Day

i want to thank everyone who jumped on the 30 day shred challenge... i can honesty say that if it wasn't for many of you doing this with me... i probably would have never got out of bed on Monday morning. getting out of bed to exercise is so hard. i am hoping this will start to feel like a habit and not so torturous! having you guys along keeps me moving though... THANK YOU!

i stepped on the scale today. the new number is 157.8! i lost 5.6 pounds this month! i was so surprised... and super excited! i am one pound away from my pre-pregnancy weight with landon. i never thought i would ever see the 150s again. the old saying nine months on, nine months off didn't apply to me. it was more nine months on, 5 years off.

i've lost a total of 37 pounds in four months. i am officially in the healthy BMI zone... another goal i was hoping to make!

i finally feel better about myself. i am happy at this weight. i remember how desperate i was to be in the 150s again and how i would appreciate it if i ever got there again... and I APPRECIATE IT!

i'm hoping now to get into a good exercise routine. it would be nice to tone everything up a little and start to enjoy running again.

On to another month of no fun sugar... scale is put away until June 3rd. Thank you to everyone who has said kind words and cheered me on! It has been such great motivation!
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Saturday, April 29, 2017

A May Goal.

it has been almost four whole months since i gave up sugar. i'll be posting a weight update on may 3rd... but until then i wanted to share that i have been having the "itch" to exercise lately. i've been going on walks with landon and nolan on trails around my neighborhood... and i can picture myself running through them. i haven't had the feeling to want to run in years. not sure if it is because i have more energy and running doesn't sound exhausting... or maybe deep down i know that i won't have to run with an extra 30 pounds on my body anymore...

but, before i decide to hit the pavement, i need to strengthen my body. the only exercise it has gotten in the past year is picking up nolan. i've tried running a few years ago at 190 pounds and it caused a stress fracture in my knee. and i don't want to go to the orthopedic doctor again for MRIs and knee braces. 

i am going to take some time and do some strength training before i start running again. i am going to do the 30 day shred starting on May 1st...Monday! i plan on working out for those 25 minutes for 30 days straight and wrapping up the program by the end of may. 

i am sharing this because i hope it holds me accountable to get my exercise clothes on and do the shred every day in may! i've had great results in the past... and hoping to tone this body and maybe prepare it to start running again. 

here is to getting this body moving for the first time in a WHILE... it's going to hurt. bad.

Wednesday, April 26, 2017

Boring dinners.

dinners are tough in this house. i pick up the kids around 4:30 at my mom's house... by the time we get packed up, loaded and then unloaded from the car... it is 5:00. At this point, Nolan is usually starving and CRANKY. 

dinners have to be quick. i have a menu i pick from weekly when i go shopping. tacos, pasta, chicken, ham steak, and mac and cheese are always in the rotation. i usually throw in a veggie which can be cooked carrots, corn, peas, or beets. and i end dinner with some kind of fruit and a small sweet treat. 

dinners are boring. i am not a cook. i wish i was. but i don't even know where to begin to become a better cook. i've tried pinterest. i've tried doing other people's recipes. i just don't have the talent to brainstorm and concoct wonderful family dinners. 

tim is a good cook. but he isn't home until 6:30. and the kids have no patience and will absolutely become hangry if they have to wait until 7:30 for dinner... not to mention it is bedtime! so i try to feed the kids simple, quick meals and then tim and i will eat leftovers of the dinner when the kids are in bed.

tim gets bored of the same dinners so he suggested a dinner delivery service (Blue Apron) so we could have a change in our menu. i agreed... and am very thankful i did! the dinners are really delicious. sometimes i think the dinners could be served in a restaurant! and the even better news... they don't take long at all to make! Tim usually cooks them up when i am giving the kids' baths and putting them to bed. 

last nights dinner was spiced beef pitas and garlic labneh with some arugula... it was one of the best things ever made in my kitchen!

it is so nice to sit, relax, and eat a delicious dinner after the kids go to bed... it is also nice not to be eating leftover and heated up ham steak, mash potatoes, and corn.

**Day 113 with no fun sugar! Monthly Weigh-in is coming soon!**

Saturday, April 22, 2017

Candy cravings.

this has been a very difficult week for me.  i wanted to eat sugar more this week than any other time during the 100 days. there is so much easter candy in this house... and it is killing me. i just love ALL easter candy.

easter baskets sat on our counter all week. those baskets ended up pretty full because of family giving easter candy and of course all the egg hunts landon has gone on over the past week. i kid you not... he has done four egg hunts! i think the kid found 10-15 eggs at each hunt. oh. and nolan of course toddled around and picked a few eggs up too!
so this left a MASSIVE amount of jelly beans, reese cups, chocolate bars, and peeps.

i have been tempted to grab a loose robin egg so many times out of the basket... and the stale peeps! those things has been staring at me ALL week.

i decided today to dump the baskets and put all the candy in a bowl out of sight. best decision i made. out of sight. out of mind. or so i hope.
this made me realize just how much of an addiction to sugar i have! the cravings have been so intense. and i thought the cravings were pretty much gone...

come on may. i am ready for you. i am ready to move on from chocolate bunnies, cadbury eggs, and jelly beans.
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