the past year has not been an easy one. and tim and i have hit yet another obstacle. the reason i blog about it is because it is easier to get the information to family and friends... and because it makes me feel better. :)
landon failed his hearing test at the hospital when he was born in his left ear. we had a follow up appointment at CHOP today. landon was hooked up to all kinds of machines and was giving a variety of hearing tests for almost three hours! and the results were every parent's fear.
he can't hear. our little landon has severe hearing loss in his right ear. and partial hearing loss in his left. the audiologist said both ears were abnormal. and our next step is an ear, nose and throat doctor. looks like hearing aids may be in our future too.
i am angry. i am jealous. i am sad. tim and i both cried for a couple hours tonight. and then we both stopped. we realized we need to step it up. this little guy needs two strong parents to guide him and help him be all he can be. we don't have time to feel sorry for ourselves. God gave us landon for a reason. he knew we could handle him and LOVE him.
dear landon, we promise to do everything in our power to make you better. i know we have a long road ahead of us. hearing loss may just be the first stretch of our journey. but just know that through this whole trip we will ALWAYS love you.
Oh, sweetie. You and Tim will be strong parents for your handsome little Landon. ((hugs))
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry to hear of your struggle, Theresa. I can completely understand all of the emotions you and Tim were feeling. Your statement at the end of your post is absolutely true. God did give you Landon for a reason. You and Tim are wonderful parents and there is no one else in the world who can provide the love and support he needs. Hang in there and keep God close. I'll be praying for you all. :)
ReplyDeleteHang in there! I can only imagine the roller coaster of emotions. You guys are strong and you will help little Landon get through this! Sounds like the docs think his hearing can be improved? I feel like I just saw on AI or some other singing show where a similar condition was diagnosed at birth and the person went on to become a great singer so... have faith, and hope... and you've already got love :) We're thinking of you!
ReplyDeleteAww Theresa, I am sorry for all you have had to go through already as a mom. I know you will do your best. Trust the Lord in all of this and I know He will make you stronger. Many blessings too you and your husband. I will be praying for you. Thanks for sharing your journey with us :)
ReplyDeleteAngela
i am praying for you and hugging you right now <3
ReplyDeleteyou are so right. God has given landon to you for a reason. i often marvel at the fact that a baby is a miracle - yes. but when you think about the fact that your body released a CERTAIN egg and that a certain sperm was meant for THAT certain egg to make a certain baby - your landon - it's an overwhelming miracle.
praying for strength and peace. i can't wait to read about all the things that God shows you through your sweet baby!