a rough recovery.

my first ten days of motherhood is nothing what i expected it to be.

i thought i would bring home my little baby and jump right into feeding, changing, burping. i thought i would have no problem doing laundry, keeping the house clean and organized. i thought i would be able to cater to visitors and drive around to visit people with my beautiful newborn baby. 

i thought maybe God would give me break on the recovery of having a baby since i had such a bumpy pregnancy and delivery. but not so much. 

when i left the hospital on June 8th, my doctor told me to do NOTHING for two weeks but breastfeed. no dishes. no laundry. no driving. no cooking. NOTHING. i kind of chuckled because i felt great on that friday. and i have seen many pregnant women out and about after delivering a baby. i thought the doctor just told me that as a precaution. boy was i wrong. i guess the doctor knew i had a lot of healing to do that i wasn't ready for.

even though i didn't tear... i still was stitched up for other reasons. and after pushing for four hours, i of course was reintroduced to hemorrhoids (click here to read about the first time i was introduced to hemorrhoids). those little pains in the butt. i thought i was in the clear after having surgery on them nine months pregnant. but i guess they couldn't handle the pushing and they came back rearing their ugly faces. i could barely move last week. i couldn't sit to hold and feed my baby. i couldn't stand to change my baby. i couldn't enjoy my first week with my baby. i lived in the bathtub. and as the days went on... they just got worse. so....

i had surgery. again. 8 days after delivering Landon, i was back at the surgeon. now i am on the road to recovery... i have been feeling better every day since the surgery. not 100% yet... but hoping to get there soon. 

even though i have been having a difficult time healing... i have been VERY BLESSED with a mom who has been here to help me with the baby. she stayed a few nights so i could rest and get better. i have also been VERY BLESSED with a supportive husband who had to jump into fatherhood quickly since his wife was stuck in bed. and finally i have been VERY BLESSED with a wonderful baby.  he is definitely worth all the pain i have been going through... just look at that beautiful face!