i have been doing the whole feeling sorry for myself thing. ALOT. i keep questioning why landon was born with so many problems and why other people have babies born healthy. why couldn't i enjoy my baby's first months of life and not be stressed during them...i question if there will ever be a time when we won't have 2-3 doctor and physical therapist appointments scheduled in a week. i just want to have a normal full week with him.
i am trying REALLY hard to not think negative thoughts about whether there is more wrong with my little guy. hoping tomorrows appointment gives us answers and comforts our little family. i think we are all ready to get off this roller coaster. and ride something a little smoother.
the other day i was watching landon sleep in his crib... and the word "gift" came out of nowhere into my head. he is a gift. his hearing loss could very well be a gift that we don't quite understand why yet.