I mentioned that i stepped on the scale last Monday. i was seriously ready to see a number in the 200s by the way i was eating my face off for the past few months. it was a tough number to see, but i was pleasantly surprised to see it in the 180s.
let me explain why, you see... it was a hard thing to do, but i got rid of all maternity clothes in september. i bagged them all up and decided that i needed to go to the store and finally figure out what size i really was. i grabbed a TON of pants from the rack and started to try them on. i bought five new pairs of pants in two different sizes. 14 and 16. my jeans i purchased were a size 14. those jeans fit GREAT. i remember it feeling really weird wearing them AND remembering to put my fly up since i hadn't done that in almost two years!
fast forward to december. those jeans no longer fit right. they were tight. and actually started to fall down since they couldn't fit over my hips any more and they actually sat on my hips instead. and... well... i ended up digging for my maternity bag and pulling out my maternity jeans. they fit amazingly and i forgot how much i loved them! i really missed them. tim pretty much laughed at me when he noticed me wearing them again. it is time to retire them for good. the past few months have killed me with trying to balance work, grad school, mother, wife...
i am stepping it up to finish all the steps to become a healthier me. step one was stepping on the scale and acknowledging my weight gain. step two will be to take just a few minutes a day to focus on me.
the number is 186.0. here we go folks, welcome to always twenty pounds to go... 2014!!
next weigh-in: Sunday, January, 12th.
Sunday, January 5, 2014
Saturday, January 4, 2014
maybe...
i have been trying to watch my food intake over the past few days. i have been trying to be aware of what i am eating. i have been trying to stay away from soda and sweets. i have been trying to have the will power to walk away from foods i love.
will power. ugh. i don't have it like i use to. or maybe i am just not as motivated as i was in the past. i have a friend who wrote a fantastic blog post on focusing more on herself as a resolution. Click HERE to read her post!
i feel that since Landon has been born, i have absolutely put myself on the back burner. i feel like he has to come first to everything. maybe it started with all the health concerns he had during his first year. maybe it continued when i became a "working" mom and definitely have the working mom guilt. maybe it is just from being a mom. period.
maybe, i need to start putting a little more focus on me. whether it be to blog. or read. spend time with a friend. or even get a pedicure ( i haven't had one of those since APRIL!)... maybe if i spend a little time on myself a day, i will start to find the will power to eat healthier. maybe as i start to take care of myself more, i will find the will power to succeed more.
starting tomorrow i will begin stepping on the scale sunday. if you are interested in participating with me, let me know! it is always nice to have a friend or two to check in with!
and i will end this post with a picture of the two cutest bald babies in overalls i have ever seen!
will power. ugh. i don't have it like i use to. or maybe i am just not as motivated as i was in the past. i have a friend who wrote a fantastic blog post on focusing more on herself as a resolution. Click HERE to read her post!
i feel that since Landon has been born, i have absolutely put myself on the back burner. i feel like he has to come first to everything. maybe it started with all the health concerns he had during his first year. maybe it continued when i became a "working" mom and definitely have the working mom guilt. maybe it is just from being a mom. period.
maybe, i need to start putting a little more focus on me. whether it be to blog. or read. spend time with a friend. or even get a pedicure ( i haven't had one of those since APRIL!)... maybe if i spend a little time on myself a day, i will start to find the will power to eat healthier. maybe as i start to take care of myself more, i will find the will power to succeed more.
starting tomorrow i will begin stepping on the scale sunday. if you are interested in participating with me, let me know! it is always nice to have a friend or two to check in with!
and i will end this post with a picture of the two cutest bald babies in overalls i have ever seen!
what are ways that you are able to balance being a mom and taking some time out for yourself?
Thursday, January 2, 2014
sugar addiction
peppermint patties. snowcaps. reese pieces. pez. chocolate chip cookies. chocolate covered cherries... these are just a few of the items i had in my cabinet over the past week. the keyword in that last sentence being "had."
last night, tim and i fed our faces (okay, more me) with all the junk in the house to get rid of it all. we placed all the candy and cookies on the table and had a feast. it was the last HOO-RAH! i mean, it is IMPOSSIBLE to start counting calories when you have a cabinet full of junk.
this time around is going to be really hard. i seriously think i have an addiction to sweet stuff. i can't get enough of the chocolates, cookies, cakes, and candies. i have been eating it over the past month like there is no tomorrow. over christmas break, i had cookies for breakfast way more than i should have. but they went PERFECTLY with my cup of coffee!
this is why i need to cut out sugar the best i can. once i start eating it, i just can't stop!
i stepped on the scale on monday.... it was a tough number to see. still trying to figure out how i am going to do weigh-ins this year. i was thinking about doing "step on scale sundays." this may get me through the weekend and stay focused.
and of course i will end this post with a picture of landon. his little smile just melts my heart every time.
last night, tim and i fed our faces (okay, more me) with all the junk in the house to get rid of it all. we placed all the candy and cookies on the table and had a feast. it was the last HOO-RAH! i mean, it is IMPOSSIBLE to start counting calories when you have a cabinet full of junk.
this time around is going to be really hard. i seriously think i have an addiction to sweet stuff. i can't get enough of the chocolates, cookies, cakes, and candies. i have been eating it over the past month like there is no tomorrow. over christmas break, i had cookies for breakfast way more than i should have. but they went PERFECTLY with my cup of coffee!
this is why i need to cut out sugar the best i can. once i start eating it, i just can't stop!
i stepped on the scale on monday.... it was a tough number to see. still trying to figure out how i am going to do weigh-ins this year. i was thinking about doing "step on scale sundays." this may get me through the weekend and stay focused.
and of course i will end this post with a picture of landon. his little smile just melts my heart every time.
Wednesday, January 1, 2014
Resolutions
tim and i rang in 2014 with just the two of us this year. one of the many changes that occurred after having landon. after putting landon to bed, we enjoyed appetizers, a nice dinner, and of course dessert. we talked about our resolutions for the new year like many people do. and funny enough we have the same exact resolutions: living healthier and laundry. yes. laundry.
living healthier has always been my new year's resolution. i'm talking FOR YEARS. and i will of course be writing a blog post on that topic alone soon. but, laundry... this post will be about laundry.
boring. waste of time. other things i could be doing. annoying. pain in the neck... are just a few words that come to mind when i think of laundry. i hate it. i have hated it forever. if laundry only had two steps to it... i would be golden and would tolerate it like other tedious chores. but, it has four. and the last two steps are where i fail. and tim too. folding and putting the clothes away.
i am not much of a nagger with completing those last two steps since i am just as guilty as not wanting to do them. so laundry either:
a. stays in laundry baskets or
b. gets folded on the basement couch and stays there.
many times i feel ambitious and think, "i will finish all the laundry to the bitter end" and then the last load sits in the dryer for a day, then placed in a basket, and maybe folded on the couch. i make the excuse of it being difficult to carry the folded clothes in a heavy basket up two flights of steps. excuses, excuses......
i can NEVER finish the whole chore. and because of this, tim and i are constantly ironing or "fluffing" up clothes in the dryer to make them look presentable. we have decided to take on the laundry challenge this new year. we will try to do a load every other day instead of just weekly. we will complete the last two steps. especially the LAST step.
and of course, i will be connecting my laundry to my living healthier. the year is 365 days. not 90. or 180. 365. i am the champ at making it through the first few steps of my weight loss journey. but then i can never finish it. i can never complete the last steps. i am hoping this year i can follow through. complete the last step of being healthy and figuring out how to get there. i am the worst at starting out my journey strong and willing... but only to finish it weak and hungry.
here's to finishing things when i start them. here's to folding laundry. and putting everything away. here's to losing this weight. here's to 2014!!
living healthier has always been my new year's resolution. i'm talking FOR YEARS. and i will of course be writing a blog post on that topic alone soon. but, laundry... this post will be about laundry.
boring. waste of time. other things i could be doing. annoying. pain in the neck... are just a few words that come to mind when i think of laundry. i hate it. i have hated it forever. if laundry only had two steps to it... i would be golden and would tolerate it like other tedious chores. but, it has four. and the last two steps are where i fail. and tim too. folding and putting the clothes away.
i am not much of a nagger with completing those last two steps since i am just as guilty as not wanting to do them. so laundry either:
a. stays in laundry baskets or
b. gets folded on the basement couch and stays there.
many times i feel ambitious and think, "i will finish all the laundry to the bitter end" and then the last load sits in the dryer for a day, then placed in a basket, and maybe folded on the couch. i make the excuse of it being difficult to carry the folded clothes in a heavy basket up two flights of steps. excuses, excuses......
i can NEVER finish the whole chore. and because of this, tim and i are constantly ironing or "fluffing" up clothes in the dryer to make them look presentable. we have decided to take on the laundry challenge this new year. we will try to do a load every other day instead of just weekly. we will complete the last two steps. especially the LAST step.
and of course, i will be connecting my laundry to my living healthier. the year is 365 days. not 90. or 180. 365. i am the champ at making it through the first few steps of my weight loss journey. but then i can never finish it. i can never complete the last steps. i am hoping this year i can follow through. complete the last step of being healthy and figuring out how to get there. i am the worst at starting out my journey strong and willing... but only to finish it weak and hungry.
here's to finishing things when i start them. here's to folding laundry. and putting everything away. here's to losing this weight. here's to 2014!!
Thursday, April 11, 2013
my baby is moving.
10 months. i seriously can't believe that landon is already 10 months. he has hit some big milestones in his ten month mark. and he has only been there for five days!
before i tell you his big milestones, let me first share with you a word i have learned to understand and now can empathize with people who have it... ANXIETY. i have never been an anxious person. i take things as they come and i don't really dwell on things to get me worked up. i believe i have no control over situations in my life... and that God does. but after having landon, my faith has been tested. challenged. i started to become an anxious person.
it all started when i found the lump in his neck. and then we discovered the broken clavicle. afterwards it was the torticollis that made me nervous especially when i realized that my baby may have to wear a helmet. and then the dreaded hearing test that he failed at six weeks old. i remember googling and crying over the many things that could be wrong with my baby. ANXIETY.
and because of this anxiety, i have been anticipating and nervous about him meeting milestones. i know. most mothers are worried and get nervous. i sometimes get in the habit of comparing landon to other babies around him... even though i KNOW all babies develop differently. i get frustrated with myself because i am trying to enjoy every second and not worry and get nervous about him... they are only little for so long... why am i rushing him?.... i am rushing him to make sure he is okay. that's it.
on sunday morning, he woke up, came downstairs. and instantly started to crawl on all fours like he has been doing it for MONTHS. he never rocked on all fours. he never crawled backwards to figure it out. he literally just started to crawl around the house out of NOWHERE. that very same day, he started going from laying on his belly, to kneeling, to sitting up. in ONE day. but wait, there is more. he figured he would really make it a big day and started to pull up on furniture and start "slowly"cruising around. in ONE day. i couldn't believe my eyes on sunday morning.
since then, he has been on the move, and i love it. he crawls to a toy, plays with it for a little while and moves on to the next thing. my baby is moving. all the stress, nerves and anxiety for no reason. he is moving.
my "anxiety" has greatly improved with him, as he is growing older and i realize he is fine. he is growing and behaving like a typical baby. he doesn't have all of those scary things i googled back in the summer. the helmet wasn't all that bad. his torticollis is coming along. and he can hear! but, i have learned that being a mom, i will always be worrying and anxious about him. i just need to trust that God will take care of him. and it is completely out. of. my. control.
before i tell you his big milestones, let me first share with you a word i have learned to understand and now can empathize with people who have it... ANXIETY. i have never been an anxious person. i take things as they come and i don't really dwell on things to get me worked up. i believe i have no control over situations in my life... and that God does. but after having landon, my faith has been tested. challenged. i started to become an anxious person.
it all started when i found the lump in his neck. and then we discovered the broken clavicle. afterwards it was the torticollis that made me nervous especially when i realized that my baby may have to wear a helmet. and then the dreaded hearing test that he failed at six weeks old. i remember googling and crying over the many things that could be wrong with my baby. ANXIETY.
and because of this anxiety, i have been anticipating and nervous about him meeting milestones. i know. most mothers are worried and get nervous. i sometimes get in the habit of comparing landon to other babies around him... even though i KNOW all babies develop differently. i get frustrated with myself because i am trying to enjoy every second and not worry and get nervous about him... they are only little for so long... why am i rushing him?.... i am rushing him to make sure he is okay. that's it.
on sunday morning, he woke up, came downstairs. and instantly started to crawl on all fours like he has been doing it for MONTHS. he never rocked on all fours. he never crawled backwards to figure it out. he literally just started to crawl around the house out of NOWHERE. that very same day, he started going from laying on his belly, to kneeling, to sitting up. in ONE day. but wait, there is more. he figured he would really make it a big day and started to pull up on furniture and start "slowly"cruising around. in ONE day. i couldn't believe my eyes on sunday morning.
since then, he has been on the move, and i love it. he crawls to a toy, plays with it for a little while and moves on to the next thing. my baby is moving. all the stress, nerves and anxiety for no reason. he is moving.
my "anxiety" has greatly improved with him, as he is growing older and i realize he is fine. he is growing and behaving like a typical baby. he doesn't have all of those scary things i googled back in the summer. the helmet wasn't all that bad. his torticollis is coming along. and he can hear! but, i have learned that being a mom, i will always be worrying and anxious about him. i just need to trust that God will take care of him. and it is completely out. of. my. control.
Wednesday, March 27, 2013
Weigh-In Wednesday
still here and refuse to miss a weigh-in even if i do have a rough week... i am on Day 8 of the Shred. i am hoping to pick it back up the monday after easter. i have been a bit off the band wagon lately. not sure why. i am wondering if it has to do with the weight gain last week and maybe in my mind i wanted to give up on this weight loss thing.
i know these are all normal feelings in a weight loss journey. which is why i will continue to blog and weigh-in. bathing suit season is right around the corner... :)
speaking of bathing suit season, landon had his first swim class at the pool yesterday. he seemed to enjoy it! however, the little stinker has had a rough day today. started it at 4:30 this morning and has been screaming and crying ever since. clingy. miserable. clear runny nose and can't keep his fingers out of his mouth...TEETH!!! i have tried everything to help him but nothing works. any suggestions other than teething tablets, motrin, frozen wash clothes, mesh teethers, teething rings, sophie, and a gum massage... i am DESPERATE!!
173.6 this morning. maintenance. i'll take it.
how did you do this week? have you ever been in a weight loss funk?
Next weigh-in: Wednesday, April 3rd
i know these are all normal feelings in a weight loss journey. which is why i will continue to blog and weigh-in. bathing suit season is right around the corner... :)
speaking of bathing suit season, landon had his first swim class at the pool yesterday. he seemed to enjoy it! however, the little stinker has had a rough day today. started it at 4:30 this morning and has been screaming and crying ever since. clingy. miserable. clear runny nose and can't keep his fingers out of his mouth...TEETH!!! i have tried everything to help him but nothing works. any suggestions other than teething tablets, motrin, frozen wash clothes, mesh teethers, teething rings, sophie, and a gum massage... i am DESPERATE!!
173.6 this morning. maintenance. i'll take it.
how did you do this week? have you ever been in a weight loss funk?
Next weigh-in: Wednesday, April 3rd
Wednesday, March 20, 2013
Weigh-In Wednesday
just completed Day 7 of the Shred. it was miserable and i was cursing jillian the whole time. no doubt that i feel stronger... i last pretty much through the whole thing with just a couple "five second" breaks. for those of you who do jillian, you know what i mean. that is all she allows you to break for.
weighed in this morning. 173.4. that is a gain of 2.6 pounds. puts me down 19.6 pounds since the new year. it is a good amount gained in a week especially since i saw 169 on thursday. but i had a rough weekend and i started the shred at the same time. i always gain weight when i start exercising. maybe it is because i am more hungry. maybe it is because i think i can eat more since i am exercising. or maybe it because of the old saying "muscle weighs more than fat."
to be honest, i definitely haven't gone out of control with eating since the weekend. i have had a few things i shouldn't have eaten... like a six chicken wings. but i could have had TWELVE!
i was going to update my inches lost but figured i would wait until day 10 of the Shred... when i am finished Level 1. i will be adding more progress pictures along with the updated stats.
next weigh-in- Wednesday, March 27th.
how did you do this week?! do you gain or lose weight when you start to exercise?
weighed in this morning. 173.4. that is a gain of 2.6 pounds. puts me down 19.6 pounds since the new year. it is a good amount gained in a week especially since i saw 169 on thursday. but i had a rough weekend and i started the shred at the same time. i always gain weight when i start exercising. maybe it is because i am more hungry. maybe it is because i think i can eat more since i am exercising. or maybe it because of the old saying "muscle weighs more than fat."
to be honest, i definitely haven't gone out of control with eating since the weekend. i have had a few things i shouldn't have eaten... like a six chicken wings. but i could have had TWELVE!
i was going to update my inches lost but figured i would wait until day 10 of the Shred... when i am finished Level 1. i will be adding more progress pictures along with the updated stats.
and i will finish this update with a few landon pictures. he is working SO hard at trying to pull himself up on things. he gets frustrated but this doesn't stop him. it requires a lot of muscle to pull up 23 pounds of weight!! once he is up (with a little help from me) he loves standing! he stood in his pack and play for over ten minutes today... and LOVED it.
how did you do this week?! do you gain or lose weight when you start to exercise?
Monday, March 18, 2013
Day 5- Shred
To keep myself motivated to do the Shred, i thought i would post pictures to show progress every five days. for some reason, whenever i start working out, i GAIN weight. so i have a feeling the scale won't be too nice to me on wednesday. i did take measurements... so i may start adding those to my wednesday weigh-in.
(january 2nd)
(march 18th- DAY 5 of The Shred)
(january 2nd)
(March 18th- DAY 5 of The Shred)
(january 2nd)
(march 18th-DAY 5 of The Shred)
i have a few friends joining me on The Shred journey. how is everyone doing? i am not going to lie. i hate jillian. i just keep watching the time go by during every exercise waiting for the workout to end. thank goodness it is only 27 minutes and 22 seconds.
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