takes two weeks to break a habit and i believe that is how long it takes to mentally focus on eating healthy. i always think by the second weekend it is easier to turn down delicious food. it is easier to put on a pair of sneakers to take a walk. it is easier to prepare food that won't put on the pounds.
i have packed my lunch 10 work days in a row. and for me that is such an accomplishment. usually i buy lunch at school and it is so unhealthy. chicken nuggets, pizza, chicken patty, cheese steak... just to name a few. it takes me ten minutes of my time to pack my lunch at night and already i know it is worth it.
tonight i have a softball party to attend. this party of course will have all my favorites but i really plan on eating nothing there. nothing. chew gum.
hoping to break 150 two weeks from today. want to stay focused on the prize. aiming for 140. that will be the prize.
Saturday, January 15, 2011
Thursday, January 13, 2011
Wednesday, January 12, 2011
i believe in miracles.
remember that ring i talked about last week. it is still there. i guess what i want to say is that i am just not feeling the difference in my body.
big mistake. it could be that i am getting on the scale twice a day. once in the morning and once in the afternoon. and i am seeing 156. 157. 156. 157. i want to see numbers scoot away from 160.
i know i always get to this point in diets. the point where i am kind of depressed about where my body is and where i want it to be.
not a lot of time to get to the body i want to be on march 5th. hoping a miracle happens... and i lose 17 pounds in 7 weeks...
big mistake. it could be that i am getting on the scale twice a day. once in the morning and once in the afternoon. and i am seeing 156. 157. 156. 157. i want to see numbers scoot away from 160.
i know i always get to this point in diets. the point where i am kind of depressed about where my body is and where i want it to be.
not a lot of time to get to the body i want to be on march 5th. hoping a miracle happens... and i lose 17 pounds in 7 weeks...
Monday, January 10, 2011
weigh-in update
down 6.4 pounds. everytime i begin to eat healthy i tend to lose 5 pounds quickly in the first week. mom says that will stop as i get older so enjoy it while it lasts! :)
it was a really hard week. going from easily 10,000 calories over the holidays to 1,200 is what made it so difficult. i was so use to eating anything i wanted and as much as i wanted.
this weekend, we had tim's holiday party. so many appetizers and unlimited drinks of whatever i wanted. i ate two shrimp and drank diet coke. for dinner, i ate half of everything. half of a crab cake. half of a petite filet. half of my mash potatoes. but i ate all my veggies and salad! i felt bad for the full plate at the end of meal but felt great after it was taken away and i didn't eat all those calories!
i also had a bridal shower this weekend. and the food was OUT OF THIS WORLD. food EVERYWHERE!! and all of it was delicious. and i don't want to toot my own horn but i did fantastic. i had three shrimp and a very small dinner plate. cherries for dessert. oh yea. and no wine! diet coke only!
keeping to the 1150 calories a day. not doing any exercise yet.
new weight: 156.8
next weigh-in: January 17th
it was a really hard week. going from easily 10,000 calories over the holidays to 1,200 is what made it so difficult. i was so use to eating anything i wanted and as much as i wanted.
this weekend, we had tim's holiday party. so many appetizers and unlimited drinks of whatever i wanted. i ate two shrimp and drank diet coke. for dinner, i ate half of everything. half of a crab cake. half of a petite filet. half of my mash potatoes. but i ate all my veggies and salad! i felt bad for the full plate at the end of meal but felt great after it was taken away and i didn't eat all those calories!
i also had a bridal shower this weekend. and the food was OUT OF THIS WORLD. food EVERYWHERE!! and all of it was delicious. and i don't want to toot my own horn but i did fantastic. i had three shrimp and a very small dinner plate. cherries for dessert. oh yea. and no wine! diet coke only!
keeping to the 1150 calories a day. not doing any exercise yet.
new weight: 156.8
next weigh-in: January 17th
Wednesday, January 5, 2011
the ring.
the ring. the red, itchy, indented ring that starts at my belly button with a big circular indent (from the button) and wraps around my entire stomach. i have realized that this is one of the worst parts of gaining weight. tight, uncomfortable pants. pants that fit me twenty pounds ago and am trying to squeeze my flubby body in them now... i just can't get myself to go to a store and buy new pants...bigger pants.
i knew i was gaining weight when the second i got home from school, i would drop those work pants and put on the first pair of pants with elastic that i could find. cozy, stretchable pants. yep. i remember that day. and i ignored it. wishing back then it was a sign to start eating healthy again... ugh.
today went great. healthy breakfast and lunch. tim made another delicious salad with apples tonight! and i had a hot chocolate for dessert with a few marshamallows for 170 calories.
two new goals i want to keep track of is my water drinking and my sleeping.
i hate water. i hate it, i hate it, i hate it. i hate that i hate it. my goal is to drink a cup of water a day. and maybe move it to two cups by february.
sleeping is also rough. my bedtime is between 11 and midnight. and i am up at 5:45.... i do catch up on weekends (sleeping in til noon) but i want to get myself on a 9:30-10:00 bedtime.
hoping to get both these goals and make them into life long changes for a healthier and more confident me:)
i knew i was gaining weight when the second i got home from school, i would drop those work pants and put on the first pair of pants with elastic that i could find. cozy, stretchable pants. yep. i remember that day. and i ignored it. wishing back then it was a sign to start eating healthy again... ugh.
today went great. healthy breakfast and lunch. tim made another delicious salad with apples tonight! and i had a hot chocolate for dessert with a few marshamallows for 170 calories.
two new goals i want to keep track of is my water drinking and my sleeping.
i hate water. i hate it, i hate it, i hate it. i hate that i hate it. my goal is to drink a cup of water a day. and maybe move it to two cups by february.
sleeping is also rough. my bedtime is between 11 and midnight. and i am up at 5:45.... i do catch up on weekends (sleeping in til noon) but i want to get myself on a 9:30-10:00 bedtime.
hoping to get both these goals and make them into life long changes for a healthier and more confident me:)
Tuesday, January 4, 2011
Gordo
there is a sweet mexican lady who cleans my classroom. she has been on maternity leave for three months. she returned to work today. and said to me in her best spanglish "you got gordo."... she in no way meant to be hurtful or mean... we were talking about my recent marriage and she noticed a little extra pudge since september. make that an extra 24 pounds of pudge... she was right... and had the guts to tell me.. so many times i think to myself "so and so gained weight" but never would think to say it aloud. maybe a culture thing... she chuckled when she said it and i chuckled right along with it.
this comment went right along with my brothers from sunday when he asked if i was allergic to something.. because my cheeks were puffy. nope just getting gordo.
day two of my diet was easy. i am motivated. motivated more by what people think which i am not sure if a great motivation but it gets me focused.
tim made a delicious tuna salad. no mayo. a mustard dressing with vinegar and lemon. lettuce, onions, tomatoes, a little cheese for some dairy. trying to persuade tim to get on the healthy wagon is so difficult but hoping to talk him into it.
exercise is nearly impossible to do. i don't have a tredmill anymore at hand...and when i wake up for work. dark. when i get home from work. dark. thinking about talking to a friend to see if they will walk/run with me at night. we'll see. trying to get the food thing down first before i start adding exercise.
two months until that teeny dress. i think i can, i think i can...
this comment went right along with my brothers from sunday when he asked if i was allergic to something.. because my cheeks were puffy. nope just getting gordo.
day two of my diet was easy. i am motivated. motivated more by what people think which i am not sure if a great motivation but it gets me focused.
tim made a delicious tuna salad. no mayo. a mustard dressing with vinegar and lemon. lettuce, onions, tomatoes, a little cheese for some dairy. trying to persuade tim to get on the healthy wagon is so difficult but hoping to talk him into it.
exercise is nearly impossible to do. i don't have a tredmill anymore at hand...and when i wake up for work. dark. when i get home from work. dark. thinking about talking to a friend to see if they will walk/run with me at night. we'll see. trying to get the food thing down first before i start adding exercise.
two months until that teeny dress. i think i can, i think i can...
Sunday, January 2, 2011
A note to the skinny theresa
dear skinny theresa,
well. i lost control of eating over the past six months. something you said not to do. you told me to remember how it felt being 140... how wonderful it was. i knew it was wonderful but so was eating anything i wanted to put in my mouth. i would say about a month ago i started to feel super icky in my clothes. nothing fit. ring around my waist from wearing pants to tight for me. not wanting to buy new clothes to fit because i didn't want to try on clothes because of how awful i look. getting frustrated with ANYTHING i put on my body. trying on ten different outfits and hating each one. throwing all my clothes on the floor out of pure frustration. and yet i continued to eat over the month of december. telling myself that i would begin taking care of myself again in january.
i do have motivation. i am in my brother's wedding. i need to fit in a teeny weeny dress. i want to get back in the 140s again.
i decided to count calories again... looks like i need to eat 1,150 calories a day to get to my goal weight by march. however, i plan on eating about 1500 and adding exercise to my routine.
hoping to exercise once a day. whether it be just walking or doing basic floor exercises. maybe i will pick up running as the months go on...
hoping to look like you again. hoping to be that confident, beautiful, skinny woman who walked down that aisle in july. hoping.
love,
fat theresa
new weight. 163.2- next weight-in- January 10th.
well. i lost control of eating over the past six months. something you said not to do. you told me to remember how it felt being 140... how wonderful it was. i knew it was wonderful but so was eating anything i wanted to put in my mouth. i would say about a month ago i started to feel super icky in my clothes. nothing fit. ring around my waist from wearing pants to tight for me. not wanting to buy new clothes to fit because i didn't want to try on clothes because of how awful i look. getting frustrated with ANYTHING i put on my body. trying on ten different outfits and hating each one. throwing all my clothes on the floor out of pure frustration. and yet i continued to eat over the month of december. telling myself that i would begin taking care of myself again in january.
i do have motivation. i am in my brother's wedding. i need to fit in a teeny weeny dress. i want to get back in the 140s again.
i decided to count calories again... looks like i need to eat 1,150 calories a day to get to my goal weight by march. however, i plan on eating about 1500 and adding exercise to my routine.
hoping to exercise once a day. whether it be just walking or doing basic floor exercises. maybe i will pick up running as the months go on...
hoping to look like you again. hoping to be that confident, beautiful, skinny woman who walked down that aisle in july. hoping.
love,
fat theresa
new weight. 163.2- next weight-in- January 10th.
Sunday, July 18, 2010
A note to the fat theresa.
Haven't updated in a while... been super busy wedding planning and looking forward to the day. went to try on my wedding dress on july 8th. the lady had to take in an inch on each side. she told me not to lose any more weight. so i have had to maintain. i had to maintain 140. never made it to my goal weight. i might have dropped to 139 here and there. but my body just wouldn't budge. and i did EVERYTHING.
I have realized that i am happy at my 140. really. i will never ever be a super skinny girl as much as i always wanted to be. i am happy in my skin. i am sure i will look fine in my dress.
i will always have to work hard to keep at 140 too. won't surprise me if i gain ten pound between now and september. once i start eating foods i love... weight sneaks up on me. but i want to remind myself now... RIGHT NOW... that you feel WONDERFUL at 140... you love those summer dresses and trying on clothes. you love the way you look. hopefully this will get across to the 150 theresa. and the 160 theresa. and the 170 theresa. you worked hard to get to this point. don't throw it away in six months. remember this feeling. it was worth the HARD work over the past year. don't give up... eat healthy. exercise. say no to junk food. (maybe have a taste) enjoy life. at a healthy 140 pounds.
5 days.........
I have realized that i am happy at my 140. really. i will never ever be a super skinny girl as much as i always wanted to be. i am happy in my skin. i am sure i will look fine in my dress.
i will always have to work hard to keep at 140 too. won't surprise me if i gain ten pound between now and september. once i start eating foods i love... weight sneaks up on me. but i want to remind myself now... RIGHT NOW... that you feel WONDERFUL at 140... you love those summer dresses and trying on clothes. you love the way you look. hopefully this will get across to the 150 theresa. and the 160 theresa. and the 170 theresa. you worked hard to get to this point. don't throw it away in six months. remember this feeling. it was worth the HARD work over the past year. don't give up... eat healthy. exercise. say no to junk food. (maybe have a taste) enjoy life. at a healthy 140 pounds.
5 days.........
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